When it comes to the women in my family (or maybe it’s Asian culture), personal issues are supposed to remain just that – personal. It was only very recently that my mom opened up to me, sharing about the pain and loss she went through as a woman and as a mother. Things she had kept internalized for years that I never knew about. Watching her raise me and my two younger brothers, I saw firsthand being a mom isn’t easy. But what I was never really prepared for was the emotional and physical strain of trying to become a mom.
While I have all the admiration in the world for women who fight their battles quietly, I’m opening up about something very personal in this post. It’s different from the curated version of my life you usually see on my social media, but I think it’s important that we can talk about this kind of struggle without fear of stigma.
The Frustration Cycle
We all have friends who don’t want kids or who are indifferent (“If it happens, it happens”). I respect that, but I’ve always known I wanted to be a mom. Once Nick and I decided to start a family, we naively thought it would happen right away. When it didn’t after several months, I started tracking my ovulation like a hawk (I think Ovia overtook Instagram as my most-used app!) And after that, we probably tried every wives’ tale in the book – Mucinex, “special” lube, headstands. Lots and lots of headstands. You try to keep the negative thoughts from creeping into your head, but it’s hard. There’s always this whisper … maybe there’s something wrong with me.
As time went on, the pregnancy announcements that seemingly surrounded us eventually became babies and then first birthday parties. And while we were genuinely happy for our friends’ milestones, at the same time it was like a depressing re-run that I had to watch on repeat. Every cycle the same. High hopes, scheduling, timing, followed by waiting, and then frustration. And shame. And anger. And always, sadness.
Getting Tested
Earlier this year, we finally decided to see a fertility specialist and get tested. It was a few days of getting poked, prodded, and dyed, and plenty of surprise “oh, insurance doesn’t cover that part” bills. When it was over, I was almost wishing for something definitively wrong so we could just “fix” it. But our doctor told us everything looked fine, and started us down a 6-month plan of fertility treatments. Meanwhile, everyone would offer their own advice. Do acupuncture. Don’t stress. Work less. And of course that one line of advice that undoes itself as soon as it’s uttered…“Just don’t think about it.” During this time, the once innocuous question of “so when are you guys having kids?” by well-intending friends and pesky aunts became one more pill to swallow and politely smile through.
After months of the less-invasive treatments without success, the next step would be In Vitro Fertilization (IVF). A more invasive, more expensive, and even more emotionally draining procedure.
For those who aren’t familiar, the IVF process starts with a few weeks of daily self-injections into the abdomen to essentially trick your ovaries into becoming an egg factory. Your doctors monitor egg progress at the crack of dawn almost daily by drawing blood and doing vaginal ultrasounds (let’s just say, it’s not an EXTERNAL ultrasound), and then determine your injection dosages for that night. Next, surgery is performed to retrieve as many eggs as possible, which are then fertilized externally with sperm before being transferred back into the ovaries as an embryo.
However, since our tests indicated nothing was wrong, we were told our insurance would not cover IVF. And without insurance, it can become quite expensive because each cycle brings only a chance of success, and each attempt could cost upwards of $15-20k. Needless to say, at this point I’m not doing so well following the “not stressing” or “not thinking about it” advice!
An Insurance Mix-up
This August when I got my period again, I just felt empty and defeated. We made the hard decision to pay for round 1 of IVF out of pocket, and to figure out the rest as it unfolded. As a last ditch effort, I had our doctor submit the case anyway even though we were told insurance wouldn’t cover it … and we were dumbfounded by the response. Our insurance said that our test results (from over half a year ago) showed sufficient abnormalities to approve IVF coverage. Had we submitted it sooner, it would’ve been approved immediately at the time. I’ve never felt so frustrated and relieved simultaneously.
Where We’re At
Last month we officially started IVF. Probably the most emotionally loaded three letters I’ve ever typed. The fertility journey is a roller coaster, and one of the hardest parts is you never know how far along the ride you are. The ultimate unknown and worst part, is that you could go through it without success. That you do all of it for just a chance to be a mother, and you might have to do it again and again.
Throughout it all, I’ve felt ashamed and frustrated that my body couldn’t do something that a woman should be able to do. Lonely because there was no one to talk to who I felt would understand. Jealous every time there was a new pregnancy announcement, especially from those who weren’t even trying. Guilt, for even feeling that way. Left behind as I watched seemingly every friend and peer graduate onto the next chapter, wondering when it’d be our turn. And silly, knowing how many women go through years of infertility, miscarriages, and so much worse compared to me.
But sometimes, you just have to focus on what’s right in front of you. And in this case, that meant confronting the cooler full of syringes that arrived on our doorstep. As someone who turns into a 5-year old girl at the sight of needles, the daily injections and blood drawings never got easier. And then there were all the unnatural changes to my body from the hormones. The feeling of having no control over the outcome. This week, while waiting alone in pre-op before egg retrieval surgery, I was fighting nausea from the IV and felt tears start to roll down my face uncontrollably. A nurse came in and asked why I was crying, and I just couldn’t explain and didn’t want to have to explain. It was both nothing in particular and everything all at once.
Now, I’m writing this recovering on the couch, wrapped in a heating pad, awaiting news on how many embryos made it and will continue on to the next step. Infertility and IVF gets mentioned so much these days – whether it’s on TV or through a friend – it almost seems commonplace. But that shouldn’t take away from how tremendously brave and strong each woman is throughout her unique journey. It’s something we shouldn’t be afraid of talking about. Because it’s something that no one should have to take on alone.
So whether you have kids or don’t want kids; whether this topic is far off in your future or you’re in the middle of it right now – thank you for lending an ear and letting me open up.
I’m sitting here in complete awe of how perfectly you explained this. I’ve never before read something quite like this, capturing EXACTLY how it is I’ve felt for the past year and a half since my husband and I started “trying”. It has been the most difficult experience we have been through as a couple. Of course, life could always be worse and so many people go through so much worse, but as a woman who really wants to be a mother, it is very difficult to be told that there’s nothing exactly “wrong”, but that you need to undergo fertility treatments without any certainty of when or even whether or not they will work. I admire you for voicing your very difficult journey and your feelings, as it echoes those of so many women, like me. It’s always somewhat comforting to know that you’re not alone and that others will be there to try to understand you and provide support. Thank you.
“It was both nothing in particular and everything all at once.” Couldn’t have said it better. Thank you for this post and sending you and Nick positive vibes. <3
Dear Jean,
So proud of you .. an incredibly brave women. We are with you praying for the safer ,successful and happier future. Best wishes.
I admire the your strength to write this post more than you know. It brought back all the feelings I once felt. It is like you said such a lonely and sad feeling to feel like your body will not do what it is supposed to do. Sending you all my love, prayers and a hug
Hi Jean,
I have been following you for years and refer to you for style inspiration always. I am not going through IVF but have had two miscarriages this year so far. We are fortunate enough to have a beautiful 2 year old boy so I am well distracted but every now and then I see a pregnant woman pass and can’t help but feel like it should be me and that there’s something wrong with my body. Thank you for sharing your story and letting everyone who is going through their own fertility journey that they are not alone and to remind everyone to be sensitive to others. You never know the struggles that someone might be going through. Wishing you and Nick the best, stay strong ❤.
Jean, I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all this but I wish you and Nick the best. I struggled with infertility too during my second pregnancy and completely understand the frustration, guilt, and loneliness. I will definitely be keeping you in my thoughts and sending you lots of love!
Kileen
Jean, though I have never met you I have always admired your blog and work as a fellow Boston blogger. You are what every Boston blogger aspires to be! And through everything you have shared on your blog I feel like I have gotten to know you and your husband really well. I am so sorry for this pain you both are going through. Know that you are not alone and that their is nothing that is wrong with you. I am so glad to hear that your medical insurance has finally decided to cover the costs of your IVF because I know that the two of you are going to make one very beautiful baby someday. You have a loyal support group in your friends, family and all of your fans. I know I’m sending my prayers to you!
Wishing you all the best with your journey,
Kate
Jean, I’ve quietly enjoyed reading your blog for nearly a decade, but never commented. I wanted to thank you for sharing and sends lots of support. “Throughout it all, I’ve felt ashamed and frustrated that my body couldn’t do something that a woman should be able to do. Lonely because there was no one to talk to who I felt would understand.” These words ring so true – I had a difficult pregnancy and felt the same way. When I did open up to friends and family about what was going on, I felt like the odd woman out for not ‘handling’ pregnancy with confidence or ease, the way so many women around me seemed to be doing. I now believe that struggles at various stages of this journey are far more common than we are led to believe, and I hope that women take heart from your post that they are not alone. While I understand why many women choose to fight their battles quietly, I think this does a disservice to us overall when many of us find that the process is not what we expected. It’s so important that we share our stories. Thank you for opening up about yours.
Sending you and Nick love, Jean. You’re brave and kind to share your story with others, which you’ve done eloquently. Wishing you strength, peace, and of course success in your journey.
Jean, thank you for sharing your story. Have you heard of the podcast Eggcellent Adventure? It’s done by a couple who is sharing their IVF journey and they have built up a community of people who are doing IVF and the shared knowledge there is incredible.
This is so beautifully written, thank you for sharing. Your honesty will really help a lot of people who are on the same journey. Your mom showed you just how powerful and strong women are when we need to be . I wish you and Nick both all the best whatever the outcome. Take care of each other. Thank you Jean for everything you do.
Wow. This is the first post I’ve read of yours, and it’s absolutely beautifully written. I’m so sorry for your journey, and I’m even more sorry that you’ve felt like you couldn’t open up sooner. What a difficult time for you and your hubby. I hope y’all have positive results and that the only poking and prodding you get from now on comes from a chubby little finger saying, “Mama!”
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Good luck, I really hope it works out for you. I can’t imagine what it must be like to go through physically and emotionally but you sharing your story will be helping so many women in ways you can’t imagine. Stay strong. X
Jean,
I love your website and have never commented before, but your very personal story made me emotional as I have been through the same journey and was completely ready to give up. I am now the mother to a beautiful 12 year old daughter. I wish you the best and am sending you ‘extra strength’ and hope you and Nick have good news soon.
I’ve loved your blog and have been following you for years now, but haven’t felt compelled to comment until now. My husband and I are also part of the 1 in 8 couples who struggle with infertility. We have gone through two failed IVF cycles (with another cycle to start up in a few weeks), and can sympathize with you and your struggles. It’s not something we typically share with others either (we’re Chinese-Americans too), but you are brave in your willingness to talk about this extremely personal matter and to share about it while you’re in the middle of it. Unless someone else has walked through it before, it’s hard to describe how physically, emotionally, and financially exhausting the process is. And I totally get it – friends and family are well-intentioned, but don’t quite know how to respond in a way that would be helpful. By sharing what you have, I hope that others out there will get a glimpse of how difficult the process can be, and how they might be more helpful and compassionate in addressing those who struggle with infertility. I commend you for sharing, and also want you to know that you’re not alone! And I hope there’s good news about your embabies!
Thank you for sharing this. I wish I could have read something like this ten years ago. Your story sounds unbelievably familiar. At the time I felt so alone….I know this will be a comfort to many others.
I hope this message reaches you, seeing that you’ve been receiving tons of love via this post. My husband and I tried getting pregnant and was successful after 8 years (nothing was wrong with us, just lifestyle change). My colleague has gone through IVF and conceived naturally after 10 years and now has 4 kids. I pray that you hang on to faith. When I felt defeated and depressed, faith was what I hung on to and kept me from sinking. The Lord gives His hardest battles to His strongest soldiers.
Thank you for sharing! As someone currently struggling with infertility it is nice to know you’re not alone when there’s not a soul around that can relate.
Our friends have tried for 8 years and tried IVF twice and they finally had their baby girl. Just when they were planning to do IVF for their second baby she go pregnant naturally! Although things may seem grim….don’t give up!
Jean, I can’t relate directly to the IVF experience, but I have gone through family issues where I had to go though abortion (wished that I didn’t wake up after the surgery), to wanted to have a baby but had no heart beat, another surgery, then out of no where when I gave up, I was blessed with a beautiful-cutest of the world-loving son. I was in tears and tears and tears thru this whole up and downs. All I want to say if you and Nick are beautiful loving couples and you will be leased with kids (plural) because you will be great parents. I want to give Nick a big shoutout because without him being strong and with you and supporting you, you won’t have the courage to decide on the IVF and writing this post. Kudos to you and Nick. Relax ( I know it doesn’t sound appealing, but try to, as much as you can). With all the blesses here there everywhere, you will have plenty of kids. It’s just a matter of when. Hang on…. because parenthood isn’t easy too. Kind suggestion,: take your time now to fully enjoy your alone time with Nick, families and friends. Me and my husband looked at each other last week and said what did we do on a normal day/weeken before we had kids???
Hi ,
Hang in there! I know exactly how you feel. The frustration that nothing is happening, the jealousy that others get pregnant easily, the anger that comes when family members asking isn’t it time for you to have kids, the resentment towards woman who get pregnant and didn’t want it, scared that you won’t be able to ge pregnant again, ashamed that the natural method doesn’t work for you, irritated that people don’t understand what you are going through.
I was 16 weeks pregnant when my DR found an abnormally with my baby girl. He said that I had to do an abortion right away because she wouldn’t survive the entire pregnancy. My heart just stop. Signing the abortion paper was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I regret everyday for signing it, but we had no choice but to do it. It’s been 2 years now since we put an end to my pregnancy. The truth is, I miss little girl, and I wake up every morning regretting it even if we had no other choice. I wonder every day if I didn’t do the abortion, would she beat the odds and survive or woukd her tiny heart give in like my DR said…., I don’t know…..
My husband was thinking of IVF, and aim afraid to actually go to that clinic. There’s so many if….what if I don’t get pregnant on the IVF, what if the baby gets an abnormality too…. I’m actually pretty scared to get pregnant again.
I’m glad that you wrote this because this is the 1st time I said/wrote what I actually feel since my little girl died. And I don’t feel alone doing this
Love how open and honest this post is. So real and raw. This is beautiful. Thank you. The blog world and social media world need more people like this.
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Thank you for opening up and sharing such a personal post. I have followed your blog for years and love that you used your platform to bring such an important matter to light. Reading your post brought back many emotions from my struggles and treatments. I admire everyone and every couple that goes through this. I think it was the hardest trial on our marriage as the roller coaster of emotions for both people involved is so intense. It has taken a lot of time and personal reflection but I am now able to talk about my experiences without getting emotional. I wish you and Nick all the luck on this journey and hope for a healthy happy outcome. Know that you are not alone and thank you again for sharing.
I can’t say anything that you haven’t heard before but just wanted to say I read your words, it truly touched me and brought tears to my eyes, and I hope good news comes your way!!
Thank you for sharing your story. I pray that you and Nick have the strength to make it through this process. God will give you what your want just believe and have faith that he will. Continuing to pray for you guys hang in there. XO
Praying for wonderful news soon!
We too struggled for years to conceive. Suffered many miscarriages and one horrific ectopic pregnancy.
A year later I cleansed flouride from my system. Only drank reverse osmosis drinking water and removed it from my tooth care.
I gave up trying to ‘control’ my body and make it happen. And with every part of my mind and body gave it over to God. I simply did what I did not want to do. I stopped thinking about it. I quit social media and following my friends to move on and not have those jealous thoughts creep in.
Shortly after, we found we were pregnant! I felt the exact same feelings you have shared here. I write this hoping to help someone looking for advice and hope for their journey.
Please, please research and read about flouride in your diet. It has a direct link to infertility. And then take the next steps with all your care regimen. Makeup, shampoo, conditioner and lotions all enter your bloodstream. Think about what you put on your body. No doubt in my mind that this helped us in our battle for a baby.
Baby dust to all!
I commend you for your authenticity and openness in sharing your infertility story. I had a miscarriage in May and have been trying for 5 months and each month that passes without “success” is a shot to the gut. I’m getting results of my full panel blood work this Wednesday and am anxious to learn “what is wrong with me.” Ugh. I can relate on so many levels to what you’ve shared, the highs and lows, the guilt, it’s tough. Infertility and miscarriage is so difficult and you really can’t comprehend how hard it is until you go through it yourself. I pray this treatment is successful for you.
Thank you for sharing, one of my greatest fears is not being able to conceive, it is common in my family. I am frustrated that my husband refuses to start trying now because, even though he 100% wants kids someday we “aren’t financially ready for a baby now.” I have such anxiety that by the time /he feels/ ready my chance of conveiving will have passed and we will not have kids. We are not blessed with the resources to try IVF. I know it is in God’s hands, but I believe deep down that my husband’s naieve stubbornness will leave me childless.
Just wanted to get that off my chest, i visit your blog daily, Jean, and you are such an inspiration to me in more ways than one. I wish you and Nick all the best!
Thand you so much for this extremely honest post. I completely understand how you are feeling. I feel the exact same way. I am further behind than you in my infertility journey but I totally sympathize with when you say this is an emotional rollercoaster. It is the most frustrating thing in the world when you don’t have control over your own body. My husband and I were trying for 11 months and miscarried at 5weeks. Since then nothing has happened and it has been almost a year. If my second IUI doesn’t work this month I have to get surgery for possible endometriosis. I’m currently in the two week wait and going crazy. After surgery is 3 rounds of injectables. If that’s doesn’t work we would be onto ivf but my husband has major reservations about it so I’m not even sure if ivf would be an option for us. I understand the stinging pain and feelings of dispar. They are so raw and real and unless you have ever experienced it yourself it is so hard for others to grasp what it feels like. Know that you are not going through this alone and all us infertility warriors are rooting for you!!! You are so brave and amazing for sharing your story!!
Girl!! All the hugs for you<3 After having a miscarriage last year and then a trying year of trying, I had tests done too and found a mutation. I have never had such mixed (but mostly negative) feelings about finding out what the issue was. On one hand, “everything is fine” would be reassuring but also deceiving since something was clearly not working (as you had to go through). But, just knowing about the mutation doesn’t really solve anything since I have to majorly adjust diet and supplements and that still might not “fix” anything. Best wishes for you guys!!!
Thank you for sharing this with your readers. It’s so hard when it seems to happen so easily for everyone around you. I am in a similar place and have a lot of the same frustrations and fears that you expressed here. You’re not alone! I wish you and your husband the best.
Jean, you have a beautiful heart and you are a strong woman — don’t ever forget that. I have been following your blog for a few years now, mainly because we’re about the same size and have the same fashion taste. Little did I know we would have a lot more in common. We may not be going through the exact same thing (I miscarried my first recently), but I feel your pain and your sadness. I urge you to stay positive and be patient. I keep telling myself that great things just take a little more time, and soon enough we will both be happier than ever. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers for as long as you need. Thank you for sharing your story, I feel more compelled to share mine. The fear of the stigma is out there and it’s up to us to help diminish it. If you ever need to talk, you should have my email in the post 🙂
Take care and sending you the warmest hugs!
Jean, you are so brave to post your story and I’m sure it will help many women struggling with the same issues. Have you and Nick been tested for MTHFR? If not, please do. Folic acid is added to so many products and if you can’t metabolize it, infertility and miscarriages can be some of the outcomes. http://mthfr.net/is-mthfr-affecting-your-pregnancy/2013/05/24/
Jean, I’m in the same boat with you. I just transferred my last embryo from my second cycle. I have BFP however the hcg is not rising as expected. I have been so devastated after 2-year of treatment and nothing has come out from the painful journey. I transferred 6 times, 4 didn’t implant, one miscarriage and will most likely to expect another miscarriage again. I will have to move on or maybe start with another cycle. I don’t know yet.
But my best wishes to you. Given your age, you could be done after 1 or 2 cycles. My prayers are with you.
It is brave of you to share this post. My ex-wife and I went through everything you are going through (and more) over 25 years ago. The pain, the shame, the guilt, the heartache. It can be crushing ands it can crush the joy right out of your life. For us, it crushed a lot of the love out of our relationship. The stress and pain of multiple failed attempts eventually left us adrift from each other. Don’t let this happen to you. Please make sure to focus of the love that you share and make sure to reassure one another that your love does not depend on the outcome of your fertility treatment. But I wish you good fortune and good luck. I truly hope you welcome a healthy baby into the world in less than a year form now.
I work as a RN in the NICU and I have encountered many IVF pregnancies. It is quite common nowadays but I agree with you, it’s a journey and commitment that is not often talked about, perhaps due to the fear, guilt, and stress that comes with that decision. Due to the nature of my work, I know about my coworkers pregnancies a lot sooner than their families and friends and the ones that have losses or experienced infertility. All I can say is these things happen a lot more than you think. People certainly don’t advertise it. You are definitely not alone, even though it may feel like that at times. I’m glad you were able to share your thoughts and feelings on here, it’s not an easy step to take! But I hope that you’ll see that you’re not alone in this and that writing and documenting your journey can be therapeutic as well. I sometimes wondered in my head whether you and Nick will have kids, and you’ve answered that for me in this post. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story and I really hope that the treatment is successful and that we’ll hear about a healthy baby growing inside of you! On a side note though, pregnancy itself is both an emotional and physical experience, and sometimes with the hormones going all crazy and your body changing it can make you feel like you’re not yourself. Make sure you talk about your feelings, whether with your husband, family or like you do here. Don’t let fear, frustration and sadness spiral into depression… I’m sure you have a great support system so make sure you reach out! And try not to stress out too much (I know it’s easier said than done) and think about the unknown. One step at a time, one day at a time 🙂 xoxo
Hi Jean,
I’ve been a follower of your blog for many years, as a matter of fact, you’re the first blog I’ve ever followed and still do! I never comment on blogs, but felt compelled to for this post. Thank you for sharing this personal post. In the perfectly curated world of blogging, you’ve brought us back down to earth by sharing this with us. That aside the fashionable outfits and beautiful vacations, everyone goes through struggles and challenges. I could feel the heartfelt frustration and sadness in your post, but from this, it shows the beauty, depth and humanity in your being. In hopes of offering some comfort, know that with every heartbreak, failure and challenge comes greater growth, compassion and strength. Best of luck to your family during this journey!
Thank you for sharing your journey, Jean. There’s so much to say and not enough to say, so I’ll just say thank you… and also that you’re incredibly brave. Wishing you the best and all the happiness in the world.
**hugs** Wishing you lots of rest and peace over the next stages of your journey. I can’t imagine how physically and mentally exhausting the whole process must be. I admire how you’ve managed to keep working so hard regardless– please feel free to take a break if you need it! I think all of us here will understand. <3
Jean, Thank you so much for sharing. I applaud you for your bravery. I just want to tell you that you are not alone. I am also an Asian woman and I plan to do my second round of IVF this month, after trying naturally for 2+ years and 5 IUI. I still haven’t even told close friends and family of my pain and struggles. It wasn’t until after my first failed IVF that I told my sister (who is a doctor) that I even attempted IVF. I recently read an article regarding higher infertility rates among East Asian women. compared to other women. I will forward it to you. In NYC I see a disproportionate number of Asian women in my IVF waiting room… These struggles are very common. We are not alone. I wish you all the best on your journey and hope that you stay positive. So many of us are rooting for you!
I can’t tell you how much sharing this helped others. I remember the “trying” phase. I would walk down the street and I could swear, all of a sudden, everyone was pregnant. And I would wonder if it would happen. My boys are 13 and 15 now and I know how lucky I am but nobody was talking about this then. Good luck to you and Nick. If you need any nutrition advice through this journey, I’m here. Sending you positive thoughts.
Jean, I’ve been reading your blog since high school (I’m in my last year of university right now) and I can’t tell you how much your blog has helped me over the years. I came to you for prom, interviews, networking events, reviews, and I come to you now just to see how you’re doing. Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story. I’m wishing you all the best and all the love and happiness in the world because you deserve nothing less. Have courage and stay strong, we’re all with you.
Thank you for posting your story! You just described my exact story in every way. I went through the exact same thing as you (same steps, same thoughts) and remained very private during the process because I just couldn’t take one more “pity look”. We were lucky and just welcomed our baby girl 3 months ago through ivf. In my experience, the egg retrieval was the most painful part. Stay positive and wishing you luck on you embryo transfer!! I know it doesn’t really help (I’ve been there), but the process worked for us, so stay positive! It will work for you too! Sending lots of love and positive vibes your way ❤️
You have so eloquently described what I went/ have been going through. I think you are amazing for sharing as it is something that people should not feel shameful about. Infertility was the hardest thing I have ever gone through; I never felt so lonely, disheartened, dejected and hopeful in my life. Four years, 4 IUIs, one miscarriage, $$$$ spent on meds, 3 IVF retrievals, 100s of injections later, I finally have my rainbow baby. I certainly hope that your path to parenthood is easier than mine was, but once you get there it is all so worth it. So much so, that I am gearing up to do it all over again to give my daughter a rainbow sibling. 🙂 I wish you the best of luck on your journey.
Sending good thoughts your way as you continue on this journey. Stay strong and positive. Hugs!
#Stay strong 💪 # keep fighting #hope #sendingloveandhugs
Thanks Jean for sharing. I also dealt with infertility for four years until pursuing ivf. Just like you, I was given advise and asked questions. I’ve tried everything including herb medicine and etc. then after 3 cycles of ivf, we are fortunate to have a Beautiful 20 month old girl and currently pregnant with a boy. I didn’t have many embryos to work with at all. One chance both times but we were extremely fortunate. Thank you for sharing and I hope that it was healing for you to share. For me, as physically and emotionally hard as it was, it was healing to talk about it. Best of luck with the treatment and I pray and hope to see you pregnancy post soon!!!
Jean, Thanks for your sharing. I have been through exactly like your journey except that we didn’t go for the IVF route. Yes, it was the most frustrating experience. Every time I had my period, I felt so defeated and helpless. I tried whatever a human being can think of to get pregnant. I did everything you said and more, except that i don’t know how to do a headstand!!
After 2 years, I basically just gave up and thinking that would never happen. And then, it just happened naturally. Be strong. Now, looking back, this experience really helps me and my husband to love each other more, and also build a very strong relationship for us. I truly wish you all the best and looking forward for you to feature maternity outfits for us petite ladies!!
It’s so brave of you to open up about this issue. I can relate as well as other women in here. Be strong, when it’s time, God will send those angels to you.
Thank you for sharing. I’m new to the blog and just want you to know how brave you are for sharing your thoughts. So many people go through something similar, but no one ever talks about it and it feels so lonely. Wishing you the very best and loving your blogs.