Before I get back to regular outfit posts, I wanted to say thank you. I read each and every comment, direct message, and email in response to my last post, and was so moved by your warmth, support, and openness. Even though I may not have replied directly, please know that each message was uniquely meaningful to me. Your deeply personal stories allowed me to feel and share in your own incredible triumphs as well as heartache, in a way that’s amazing for women connecting through a blog.
For those who are interested, I wanted to occasionally share more of the highs and lows of the journey as we go. After leaving off with IVF egg retrieval in my last post, the next steps were to wait and see how many eggs fertilized, and then how many survived to day 5. In our case, the embryos that grow to day 5 are frozen to undergo optional genetic testing, which takes several weeks. Each embryo that’s deemed healthy can then be thawed and implanted into the uterus, where it will hopefully “stick.” At every waiting point along the way, there is almost always a dropoff.
Our doctor was able to retrieve 21 eggs last week. I was admittedly on a high, and allowed myself to feel oh so optimistic! But only 9 fertilized, and then yesterday while in the grocery store parking lot, I was told only 3 embryos survived to undergo testing (which means perhaps 1 or even none could make it to implantation). I couldn’t help but burst into tears right there – I was prepared for dropoff, but not quite so much. I know it’s ok and even important to cry at times, but your messages helped me find strength and regain positivity, as we continue down this uncertain road. So thank you again, from the bottom of our hearts.
Just know, God is in control and knows your plans and his plans may not always align with yours. I went through the very same thing you are going through now. Trust in him! Either way.
Hey girlie, I have been looking for this coat forever. They are out of stock at Jcrew but besides that their updated version is different & I dont like it. I was wondering if you’d possibly want to sell it? I would give you a good price.
Reading through your post ‘When Trying Is Trying’ is like reading my own story. My husband and I have been trying for 3 years but to no avail. The questioning from friends & family was never easy to swallow. And it doesn’t help that we are surrounded by friends and family who got pregnant easily without even trying (some holding on their babies on their 1st wedding anniversary).
We embarked on the IVF journey in late 2016 after everything else failed and without insurance coverage. I’m also someone who is afraid of needles and understand that the daily injections and blood drawings never got easier. We have 5 Day 3 embryos, our clinic has a policy of stopping at Day 3 if there’s less than 6 Day 3 embryos. We transferred 2 embryos in Mar 2017 but it was not successful. I quit my job in May 2017 in hope the elimination of job stress will help. I also did a laparoscopic surgery in Jul 2017 to remove my ovarian cyst in hope it will increase my chances. I was terrified up to the point I was injected with sedative in the surgery room. In Oct 2017 we did a 2nd FET with 2 embryos. We have really high hopes this time around only to have our dream crushed.
We have now switch to another clinic. This clinic has a policy of pushing all embryos to Day 5 . The doctor also advised us to perform genetic test on all the Day 5 embryos. While he said this will ensure only they select the best embryo to transfer, I’m secretly afraid this may also mean there’s a chance nothing will be left. We are set to start our 2nd IVF in Mar 2018. *praying hard*
I’ve been secretly suffering in private for 3 years. Thanks for sharing your journey and giving me a chance to open up.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish you & Nick all the best!
Hi, I know this post has been up for a while, but I wanted to let you know you are not alone. We tried everything to conceive a child, from Clomid, to injectibles, to IUI. We made a final ditch effort at the end of all that with an IVF….which did not work. But a month after my IVF failed, I was spontaneously pregnant, and have a healthy 3 year old today. Don’t give up future mama, miracles happen.
Jean – I’m sad to hear that you’re going through this, as I will be starting my IVF treatment in a couple weeks. I can definitely relate to all of the mixed emotions you’re feeling, because I feel like that all the time. I had a miscarriage last January and have been trying for a year since (already being married for 4 years). We then decided to see a specialist and found out that I have a very low ovarian reserve at just 29 years old and that I’ll never be able to conceive from my left ovary. But I’m hopeful for us and all the other women facing these circumstances all the luck and love along this difficult and emotional journey. Be strong and stay optimistic. I know its easier said then done, as I repeat that to myself everyday over and over. Take care
Jen, hang in there. It’s a strenuous process, but well worth it. I only had 5 retrieved and 3 survived to a blastocyst which then through the genetic testing, we had 2 viable embryos. I’m now holding my 2 month little boy. The year it took through Ivf was extremely draining, but his smile makes me realize that this was a humbling experience and I look at the world in a more optimistic perspective. As you can never truly judge what a person is going through. Sending you well wishes!! Keep post updates💕
Two of my closest friends has been down the IVF road. They both had troubles with egg-harvesting. But the first one got 3 like on their 4th try. One of those became a beutiful strong boy. And the other 2 are still in i freezer somewhere.
3 can be more than you need at this point. 🙂
Good luck to you both
Jean, I have been through the same emotional roller coaster as you and I understand everything you have been/are feeling. Although, I must admit that I was angry and bitter for sometime – it seemed unjust. My husband felt helpless but he was always there, at every appointment, during all the pricking and prodding and testing…he was there each step of the way. Like you I went through several less invasive procedures before attempting IVF. All the while wondering whether there was any point since my doctor told me that my ovarian reserve was incredibly low and diminishing by the minute. To put it bluntly, I had the ovaries of a 50-year-old. Thankfully, my obstetrician sister reminded me that all it takes is ONE egg, one single precious egg. I wasn’t even sure if I was able to produce any at all, but our first attempt produced just that. And this one and only egg is now a very healthy little boy of 4 and a half months. Don’t lose faith or hope and although some people do not dare broach the topic, they are probably thinking of you and your husband and praying for you. Lots of love from Paris
I sporadically check my favorite fashion blogs and you’re one of them. I hadn’t visited yours in a bit and today when I saw this post I couldn’t Believe it. I just had my third IVF transfer today. It is a rollercoaster of a journey with tons of highs and lows. The first two transfers resulted in early miscarriages. Today I am full of hope but also know there is a possibility it just won’t take. At times i’ve found myself bawling and feeling hoplelesss but I always pick myself up and try again. It’s seriously going to hell and back but I’d do it all over if there is a chance I can get the babies i’ve Always longed for. It’s a rough and at times, lonely journey but you’re not alone and thank you for making me feel like I’m not either. Prayers and baby dust.